In everyday life, we use the term "control freak" negatively or in a self-deprecating way-- as in one who always seeks and NEEDS control at all times.
I struggle with this, because I wonder if wanting and needing control is really a bad thing?
A sense control, over anything in your life, can lead to a feeling of increased predictability, stability and peace. Who doesn't need a little more of that in their lives?
I'm not crazy about controlling my Type 1 Diabetes. (gasp!!) I don't focus on getting the perfect numbers all the time, BUT I choose to control my diet, which makes diabetes somewhat self regulating (at least more so than it was when I was eating high-carb).
Largely through control of the type and intake of my food, diabetes becomes more controlled by default. It's an interesting concept.
If you follow the law of small numbers, (small amounts of carbohydrates, small amounts of insulin needed, small corrections) the variations in blood glucose levels are much more controlled and manageable.
I feel like this takes the power away from diabetes and puts it back into my hands.
For years, I struggled to keep my BG numbers down without crashing, BUT I struggled because I didn't want to be told what to do and how to do it.
Diabetes and I were joined at the hip but it was more like an evil twin than a symbiotic relationship.
Diabetes has made me healthier than I would have otherwise been. I don't take my health for granted. I focus on nutrition and in return, my BG levels are better than they've ever been.
Diabetes and I can now work together to benefit each other. My evil twin is now giving me that increased predictability, stability and peace I was looking for-